That is when your heart (& brain) get a severe pummelling (like morning a death one or the break up of a relationship). Your heart turns into the shape of a takotsubo which is a pot famously Japanese, which has a narrow neck but it’s wider in the midsection.
Takotsubo Cardiomyopathyotherwise is otherwise known as broken heart syndrome.
I guess it’s really true that you can die of having a broken heart.
So they say one goes through 5 stages of grief, those being denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance.
This brain injury & doing this blog has made me a lot more introspective, so it will hopefully make me go through all the stages.
Amputees, for example, go through the stages of grief for their missing limb. It’s kind of like grief for their missing appendage, instead of a loved one.
Amputees get the same feelings as people in morning; for their missing appendage. They still go through the process of feeling denial, anger, bargaining, depression and eventually acceptance
Most people want to know how someone has come to be an amputee, I guess people want to hear the juicy bits.
There’s so much advantages in prosthetic limbs recently, unfortunately you can’t get a prosthetic brain but there has been a huge advance in technology & in knowledge of the the brain.
I found this information on a series on Netflix called “Human; The World Within”.
Our brain has the synthetic & the parasympathetic memory, these are part of the autonomic nervous system. The synthetic is like the fight-or-flight system. Very quick response.
A build up of even constant synthetic response causes stress within the muscles.
Then it’s when your parasympathetic nervous system takes hold, kind of like a last-resort.
The parasympathetic nervous system helps you do the things that the brain does that we just don’t think of.
A good example which I’ve used before is blinking or even breathing (I haven’t used that before though).
It you like my writing, I think you’ll like this;
Juniper is a common which makes clothes for disabled people, & I also it’ll be my next port of call in terms of occupation.
Bet that caught your attention!
I was watching “trigger Warning with Killer Mike”, the second episode being about educational porn. It says school teaches you unrealistic goals, that it subtly teaches children to obey. Our schools allow us to have unrealistic dreams.
I am trying to be realistical & I’m trying to find work now, thinking realistically. I’m spending most of my time & effort on my blog, so I guess that makes me a writer.
I assume you’re thinking this post will be more about porn. It doesn’t include any nudity. Hopefully it’ll inspire you to watch the episode.
Killer Mike is on Netflix. This makes me want to learn how to lay floors, build a box, wire speakers & while watching porn. The episode is called “school” & it’s in season one.
For someone who’s in the fashion industry it’s I tonic that I have a condition where I try to record everything.
Hopefully it’ll make me unique.
Fortunately, the fashion industry is visually focused so it doesn’t matter if I’m monotonous, just as long as I keep on producing things with the novelty appeal.
What we all ask is “who am I?”. That’s not literal but I guess hypothetical. The question that we’re all asking is how do you be a person?
Literally my name is Leuty Parker, but it’s more about finding our place on this planet.
I am a daughter & a sister but along with all of those things I am a brain injury survivor. I’m going through the long process of rehabilitation. This brain injury has allowed me to learn everything again, so anything I wasn’t happy about in the old Leuty, I can learn to do it differently.
What I come to understand is I have a body of a mature woman, but the brain is at a different age. So I think that my brain at this moment is @ age 14/15. I’m going through puberty again. Mental puberty, I guess.
I’m so glad that I can disclose all my thoughts & feelings in this blog. I have some aspirations that I want to achieve, I just need to recover, & this blog is my way.
Hopefully this blog will inspire others who have had brain injury, or even their careers, family or friends & help others understand what I’m going through. I have definitely found that I have been my own worst enemy.
I was searching for French & Saunders & came to a stand up thing of Dawn French called “Dawn French: 30 million minutes”.
It starts off by saying that she needs a fermatashe in her life. She then describes what a fermatashe is. In the music industry, a fermata is a pause, but in unknown lengths. Kind of like a break. She says that what she needs is a fermata in her life.
This fermatashe is a time where she can do what she needs to get done, both important & unimportant. In this fermata she talks about how her life would pan out in this fermata. All the mischief she’d get up to. In this reality she says that she’ll whisper all the details about her mischief in her girlfriend’s (or boyfriends) ear.
When they come out of the fermatar reality the girlfriend knows these details that Dawns whispered in their ear, they don’t know how they knows it, they just know. I get this so much now. Knowing something, just not knowing how or why I know it, but I feel that it’s maybe something I learned in my past life.
Im pretty sure that that show will in spirit future blog posts. It is on Netflix.
It’s on Netflix & it’s fucking brilliant. Very entrepreneurial. It’s on Netflix.
Check it out, it’s called “Trigger Warning with Trigger Mike”.
Here’s a taster, maybe it’ll get you hooked cause it has with me
This made me really appreciate black people, I hope it’ll open your mind
All you have to do is go to Netflix & look for “Killer Mike”.
I can’t sell it anymore, you just have to take my word for it. It’ll change your life.